Saturday, January 16, 2016

If I'm Only 29 That Means I Birthed Her When I Was 16

Of course, that's not unheard of...having a baby at 16. Thankfully, that is not the case with me. If I had birthed a baby at 16 I'm fairly certain I would have been a much worse parent than I already am. Miss M, I am sure, thinks that I am a terrible mother. I am "mean" and "embarrassing" and "annoying." These things I claim as my right as a mother. On the weekends, my husband likes to tell her he will "poke the grumpy bear" as she is particularly disagreeable in the morning hours. I don't blame her. Mornings are not my forte either.

All three of my kids have a strong sense of self. They recognize when people are jerks and generally steer clear of those kids. This often means that my kids will feel that their dad or I are being jerks and will then stand up to us. This defiance is different at different ages, of course. Ms. D is currently at the stage where she sasses back about everything and "I don't care" is the response to any threats of removal of privileges. K Man generally just shouts at me when he disagrees with what I say. There is a lot of shouting. Then he'll want to get hugs and kisses a few minutes later. Adolescence is a little schizophrenic.

Then there is Miss M. She's 13 going on 21 or something like that. She holes up in her bedroom 90 percent of the time, which is pretty much what I did in middle school. It kind of sucks, because I like having her around, but I get it. I was once 13, 16 or more years ago.

She brought home a high school information packet today. There are a lot more options for electives, etc, than when I was in high school. It was almost overwhelming. The cool thing about it was that she was so interested in almost everything offered. That was also the hard thing. How do you determine what you want to do in life at 13? I think we had a good discussion about the pros and cons of different electives. Then I wanted to curl up in a ball and deny the fact that my first baby is going to high school next year.

Just so you know: I can't possibly be old enough to have a kid in high school.

I'm not sure when I finally got over the amazement that I was a parent, but I remember feeling that I was participating in some form of charades for several years after M was born. I no longer feel like I am not "old enough" to have kids (nice that I can recognize truth after 10 plus years!) but that doesn't mean I don't screw up a lot.

I still want to put my kids in a freezer, yet I am looking forward to who they will become. In the meantime, I am cherishing snuggles from D and K, and poking my grumpy bear Miss M.

Thursday, January 14, 2016

15 TV Shows From my Youth I Want To Watch Again

There are several TV shows that I enjoyed in my younger days that I would love to binge watch again. I started with Dynasty on Amazon Prime and it's so bad it's good. The clothes are the best. The episode I last watched, Chrystal was wearing a sailor-inspired outfit with a big red bow at her neck. Terrible, awful, and totally 80s. I've also watched several episodes of Magnum, PI. I had a huge crush on Tom when I was a kid watching that show. There are other shows that I have found on Netflix or Amazon that let me relive my childhood, but here are some that I would enjoy watching again that I haven't found on either platform:

  1. Silk Stalkings
  2. Remington Steele
  3. Moonlighting
  4. The original series of V
  5. Quantum  Leap
  6. Episodes of Days of Our Lives (from my elementary school years that I watched when I was home sick.)
  7. Fantasy Island (fine. It's from the 70s. But still.)
  8. Kate & Allie
  9. Scarecrow and Mrs. King
  10. Solid Gold
  11. Spencer for Hire
  12. WKRP in Cincinnati
  13. Mr. Merlin (only because we were part of the focus group to decide if it would be put on air.)
  14. The Guiding Light
  15. ER
What shows do you want to watch again? What have you watched on Netflix, etc?

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

So, I have been absent here for many months. Oh, I've half-a$$ed it a few times, but I haven't written anything of substance for months, and perhaps, years. Some of my absence was because of my inertia due to having a pre-teen and a teenager. I wanted to protect their privacy. It wasn't fair to write things about my kids who were old enough to make their own choices.

Then one day my kids wanted to read this blog. And they kind of enjoyed reading this blog. (I didn't give them the address. They are too smart for their own good.) Then they asked me why I quit writing it. I recounted all of my reasons and most of all my oldest, Miss M, told me she wished I had written MORE. K Man also doesn't care, as far as I know. Poor D has missed out on most of her blogging moments because her mom was missing those moments with her littlest one.

I hope to return to writing here because my M and K clearly enjoy reading the past and I have been given permission to write these days as well.


Sunday, May 3, 2015

Unlikely and Failed Prospects

  1. My son told me that I should start a YouTube channel and vlog. HAHAHAHAHA! He's a funny kid. In case you were unaware, a few things that I am not comfortable with...talking a lot...appearing on camera...hearing my voice recorded. So, starting a YouTube channel is probably not the best idea for me. Of course, I could start a channel for people who are perhaps the most socially awkward and anxious people ever. Do socially anxious people socialize on YouTube? Maybe we write socially awkward comments? Or do the socially inept just watch?
  2.  I tried the photography business for a while and was not very successful. I really think people are less likely to hire a fat person for things. That's not to say I might not actually suck at taking photos. I don't know I guess. Some people might just be blowing sunshine up my butt. Others tell me I suck. So. One of those.
  3. Then I tried painting and tried to get a job at one of those places where they "teach" you a painting. Apparently I suck at that too. So that's fun.
  4. I feel like I've tried all kinds of creative outlets and failed at making money at all of them. I guess that's what you call a true artist, right? 
  5. I wish I knew what to do to succeed.


Saturday, April 25, 2015

Random thoughts #58

  1. I haven't written here nearly enough in the last few years.
  2. Miss M started playing softball on the "C" squad for her future high school. She'd never played before but she's having a great time playing even though she has had little instruction about what to do. She's been perfectly happy to stand in right field and do next to nothing (most of the girls can't or don't hit to the outfield at this level). She's a better player than she thinks she is and the coach had her practice at first base tonight. M discovered it was kind of fun to have more action in the game. I signed her up for a summer league too since she seems to enjoy the game.
  3. I love watching softball games even if M doesn't play. I took stats for the varsity baseball team for my high school two years in a row and they were fun days. Softball/baseball is probably my favorite spectator sport.
  4. K Man is nearly at the end of his elementary school days. His teacher requested a photo of him from his younger years to include in the end of the year slide show. At first our external hard drive storage had been malfunctioning for several months until finally tonight it worked (and I backed it up to a different drive). It was really fun to see some of our older photos. Damn these kids my husband and I made are ADORABLE!
  5. Ms. D has to be nearly the happiest kid on the planet. She smiles nearly from sunup to sundown. If she is grumpy, it takes very little to get her to return to a smile. I often feel guilty for not giving her the attention she deserves. Even with my failings, she tells me she loves me in so many ways.
  6. I've gotten extremely fat.
  7. There are approximately 6 books in progress on my computer. I should probably pick one and finish it. 
  8. I wish I was funnier and more interesting. I'm rusty.
 
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